Long ago and far away, growing up on the flat plains of Kansas, I began a journey with glass that would take me to places of beauty and wonder. But as I sit here reflecting on the holiday season, I think back to the beauty that shaped who I am.
I remember the first time my mother let me attend Midnight Mass. I honestly can’t remember if it was before or after second grade, as I can’t remember if the Mass that night was in Latin or not. It was just odd to be allowed to stay up past bedtime, get dressed up and go anywhere. It just was not done. However, my mother was ready. She dressed me up, piled myself and all my sisters into her late model car, and drove in the dark to the parish church, St. Teresa’s.
I remember the night being cold, the dim light of the dashboard lights from the back seat as we drove towards downtown. “Wake up Sally!” my sister nudged me as we pulled into the parking lot of the gas station next door. “Why are we parking here?”, I asked. No answer. The brisk wind blew right through the white tights I was wearing. I was conscious of the waistband slowly creeping down as I walked on the uneven but dry sidewalk. One of my sisters gasped. I looked up at the 1910 European Gothic revival church I thought I knew so well. On that pitch black night, all you could see was the interior lights streaming through the stained glass windows revealing all the beautiful colors, painted faces, adorned with the names of long deceased families who donated enough money to have a window dedicated to them. I had never seen anything so breathtaking in my life. I forgot about the cold wind whipping up my dress and nearly tripped on the uneven sidewalk as I could not take my eyes off the blues, greens, the reds… it just did not look the same from the inside during the day. The windows shimmered like expensive jewels. I could not wait to get inside and see how they looked from that angle.
There was no last minute pocket kleenex held tight by a bobby pin that night. My mom was completely prepared. She even remembered the chapel veils. “Ouch”, I said as one of my older sisters jammed the bobby pin into my tender head. “Shut up, Sally” she hissed. “MOM…she said ‘shut up!” I protested. My Mom just said “shhhhh….” as she opened the heavy wooden door from the vestibule to the sanctuary. The windows, sadly, were a blank, dead brown but it didn’t matter. Every light in the church was on. Every inch of the old alter had a bright red poinsettia, the baby Jesus was finally in the cradle of hay that for four weeks was being carefully stared at by large statues of Mary, Joseph, the shepherds as well as variety of barn animals. It was magical.
I guess I fell asleep. I was pretty disappointed, as I was sure I had missed the Angel of the Lord appearing or something biblical like that. But that is the first time I remember thinking that illuminated glass was the most glorious thing on earth and what it must like to be the person who could create such a wonder.






























